A shit new years eve to end a shit year.

My year.
A few random good times, but most of it has been shit. Last new years eve was really good, it was a shit time, but that day and night was a great night. I spent the day in Brighton with some people then a party with a lot of people; standard and pretty epic.
Then the rest of the holiday and the winter term was shit. Got a little better sometime after that, but still wasn't very good.
Summer term was alright, some good times, and a lot of feeling shit. Summer was pretty bad too. There were some good days and nights where I was completely gazeebo'd and with cool people. Then two of my cats died when I was in France with my dad and brother. Felix was 1 and had been missing for a few days, then got run over down the road and Cindy was 18 or something and had to be put down. Rest of the summer was bad, it was when my social anxiety really started to kick in. I kept cancelling on people and eventually they gave up. I stopped going to the youth service at the church in the summer as well. The people there were the only people I felt weren't judging me and the only place I felt comfortable, but then eventually even that thought got smashed.
I started college and hated it and still do. My christmas holiday was pretty boring. Christmas eve, day and Boxing Day was good, I love my family and shiz and it was cool. Now I'm not doing anything  new years eve. I'll be sitting in my room on my own when the clock strikes 12.
Then after that I have to go back to college, which I hate, fucking HATE.
I don't have a positive look towards the new year because I know it's going to be shit. As long as I'm at college, I'll be hating everyday.
Happy fucking new year. But I hope everyone else has a nice one anyway. x