Was hoping I didn't have to add this.

So I just got pretty pissed off at the fact that I don't lose weight no matter what I do. Then I had a binge, which totally doesn't make sense.

That consisted of: 2 crackerbreads with butter (est 55 cal), a chocolate biscuit (84 cal), and some cashew nuts (est 120) - shite.

I'm so depressed that I failed so badly... I haven't talked to anyone else who this is happening to yet, I'd like to... Before I became ana, I ate normally, and probably snacked quite a bit, but not going over the GDA. But when I lost weight, then gained, I now eat a few hundred cals, but stay the same weight as I was when I ate about 1500. Why the fuck do bodies have to be so un-fair? Let me lose weight ffs. I HATE being the fat one all the time. I'm so sick of it.

I've had like fucking 464 calories today. That's like fucking 4 bags of crisps. Fucking disgusting. Too pissed off to write about much else.